Why I Play

This post is going to be a little bit different that what I am generally going for.

 

So... Why do I play Pokemon? Well it might sound silly for a person of my age but it is actually something that I do with my husband. Our friends who are also married got us into it. It is now our escape together. We spend our free time together planning and strategizing and playing this game together. 

At first it seemed like we should be to embarrassed to tell people or hesitate when people ask but now I am proud and more in love with my man than ever before. 

 We do it for the same reason that we played sports together and for the same reason that we watch shows together: to try something new, to have fun, and to have something exciting to experience with each other.

We will go on dates and play. Remember that cafe I told you about? We sometimes play there. 

Yes we are 22 years old and yes it's a kids game but it requires skill!

I just wanted to post this as a reminder for us to not take ourselves too seriously and to stop and enjoy small things with people we love. Go out there and say yes to trying new things. Sometimes silly things... 

If you have a significant other I would really suggest finding a hobby together!

Little things

Sometimes in my life I experience spurts of menencholy.  Now that we have entered the colder seasons it is the time when people are more in their heads. They are more reflective and in some cases people get the cloudy-time blues. When it comes around I like to do some things in order to help myself come out of my funk.

This is pretty basic but this really helps me. It allows you to free yourself from the mood but also you can still maintain that gloomy and yet magical feeling that the cold can bring. 

It's mainly doing small things for yourself.

Do something for yourself that is small but nice.

If you don't want to leave home you don't have to. Something small that I like is making myself feel a little bit prettier. An option can be painting your nails. Maybe in fall/winter colors if you want to get fancy.

Go out and get yourself a treat.

You don't have to go alone. Being with friends is one of the better ways to cheer yourself up but I am mainly giving ideas that you can do if you are feeling like a recluse. There is nothing wrong with getting yourself outside and going to get a yummy treat and maybe read. Even go to a book store. All alone. It can be nice and healing. 

Exercise. Yes I said it. There's nothing like breaking a funk like feeling every inch of your body liven up, while also tightening that bum if yours. Cardio. Yoga. Doesn't matter what you choose. Just do what you want and sweat those sorrows away. This is my go-to response to a depressed mood.

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I decided to write this as a reminder to take my own advice. As a new mother I am experiencing a little bit of melancholy. I love being a mother with everything in me but I am 22 and most of my friends are not married or have kids yet so I feel a little bit like it is hard to feel understood when I'm feeling down.
Maybe it's hormones and maybe I just miss working but the blues have entered me.

In times like this I try to get myself outside. I try to do something just for me. I also try not to pressure myself too much so that I don't force anything. Heck I have had some wonderful dates with myself! I have even taken myself to a movie just because I wanted to! No shame!

So this week Noah and I went out and cheered me up. 

I had him in his little pouch and we did little nice things in the beautiful cool air.

I am definately feeling cheerful now!

Friendship, for me, has changed as I have grown up. Matured, I guess. This woman has shown me what it means to be a sister in Christ and a true friend. 

Honestly, my mind is blown watching how we were strangers who met while going through stressful pregnancies and then coming out on the other side of it all with beautiful sons and a person to have with you who understands.

And as we learn how to be wives and mothers we can laugh at the strange situations that come and pray for one another when it is hard. 

I didn't know that I would not have to be alone here as a young wife and mother. 

I guess that what I am trying to say is that God listens to our prayers and he does not always respond in the way that we expect. 

There I was, happy to have my husband, but the understanding and fellowship from my piers was lacking. When I asked for help He sent me a friend and she needed a friend that she wasn't looking for too.

And our little group of 6 (me+her+hubbies+babies) have been there for birthdays...

...and hangouts...

I almost feel like someone should slap me for not realizing how lucky I am to have a Lord who is actively working in my life.

All in all lets just say... today was nice.

"Iron sharpens iron, So one man sharpens another." Proverbs 27:17

You know what's been haunting me?

Faliure. The thought of it... You know it creeps into my bed at night and whispers in my ear "you will never--No! You are incapable of doing great things!"

It tells me every day of my life things that keep me in this slupm. 

Well, I am thinking that today I make living my life and following my dreams a career. A career that I do not give up on. 

And get away from me Satan! You and your stupid lies. God has big plans for me. I can feel it in my gut. 

... Thank you for reading by the way. Whoever you are. If you come back soon you will see that these things I'm saying will be a reality. 

Quick thought

I wonder if I should try to do yoga, make one drawing, and read everyday.

My Current Situation

First off

Hello! I'm Janine. I am 22 years old and it's is very nice to meet you. Welcome. 

At the moment the state of things inside and outside of me are jumbled. Today I am developing some things and stressing about other things as my lovely son plays around in the floor.

Right now I feel a bit like a mess so hey, why not post quickly about it? 

I'm trying to pull insperation from every part of my imagination and at the same time watch youtube. 

I'm glad to see that my plants are sprouting. It's a little nudge forward showing me that I can, in fact, keep moving forward.